Drinking the Vial of Medicine Rather Than the Bottomless Cauldron of Poison

Why do we fill the gap with more when we really should be filling the gap with better? I make a schedule every day and today I felt like I was losing motivation to put anything on that schedule, searching to fill more when honestly I have not been doing my best with what I already have. All this rushing back and forth between activities sure keeps you busy and helps you ignore thoughts of unfulfillment but I fail to enjoy things fully when I'm constantly looking for stimulation. Especially in our modern world we have lost the art of doing nothing. To clarify I'm not advocating for laziness rather I'm advocating for healthy spacing out, being able to take those moments throughout the day and enjoy the long-forgotten art of thought. It may seem simple but personally I struggle with this I feel like every moment of my day that I don't have scheduled equates to a moment where I have nothing to do. However, remember in life always being busy is not the ideal and when you get a chance to space out to write in a blog, write a poem, or just chill out with some Music do it because such opportunities can be hard to find.

What I realize is that it's ok to look for more because as human beings we constantly adapt to new realities, and we need things to change so that it feels like we're making progress and so we're not bored out of our minds with the everyday routines. But I say don't look for more but do more with what you already have because doing your best with the hand your dealt is the way to get more, for even if you play many poor hands and gamble away a lot of your resourced that risk is the only way to eventually win. So let me rephrase that to: “do more with what you have in order to get the better you've been hoping for." Ah, that sounds more like an accurate punchline. I realize a lot of this life advice is just vague so you're probably wondering, can you give me an example so I can apply this to my life? One example that I think that illustrates this concept is making friends. You could curl up in a ball and bemoan how there are so many people you are not friends with or you could decide to focus on building quality relationships with the people you do know. Both options won't change your contact list immediately but the second option of building quality relationships will increase your chances that the friends you do make you will click with. See this is why I have to reemphasize the point to seek better rather than more because I think deep down that's what we truly want. In our minds the ideal is having the names of dozens of people in our contact list but if these people don't give a shit about us and we don't have the time to care for them or hang out with them has that really solved our problem? I learned from a young age that you could be in a large group and feel desperately alone and yet in solitude you sometimes find the most company. Give yourself that me time, always respect that because as much as you want to work on your relationships with other people you first have to work on your relationship with yourself, for remember the only person that you have to be with 24/7 is yourself. Also I hope you realized this but the people you already know are some pretty amazing human beings, think out of 8 billion people you met such special gems that make life worth living. It's ok to be aware of the gaps, it's ok to understand that as human beings we need our social lives to adapt; just don't forget that the people you are taking for granted today will one day be your old buddies from the good old days that you wish you could still hang out with. Remember that all these other people that seem so cool and desirable to be friends with have a life entirely outside of your view, maybe you see them a few hours or yes even a few minutes a week but remember that their whole character is measured in the 24/7 and perhaps your wasting your time sulking when God protected you from people that would have hurt you. Better is better than more, for the little vial of social medicine you drink is better than the bottomless cauldron of social poison that this world will offer you. Just a thought.