Hi Let Me Introduce Myself

Hi, let me introduce myself.  I’m an 18-year-old college student who is struggling to grasp the purpose of life. Someone who feels like there are millions of things to do and just no time to dedicate to growing a passion such as sharing life advice in writing. “I just have too much homework, I’m not good enough, I will never have time to write a blog and/or book, nobody cares about my story anyway.” Let me explain that before we start on this journey of enlightenment( at least I hope you’ll see it that way) I want to explain a little bit about my background and my style of saying things. First, I want to make clear that my intent is not to be cynical nor is it to be ignorant of the bad that does occur in our lives. The topics I talk about in this blog/book (I hope one day I get this published) can be very emotionally deep and insightful. I promise you I won’t make this all a sad performance, as you continue reading on you’ll probably pick up a lot about my personality, the way I like to be real about the negative but like to put a positive twist on a story rather than ending in a  sad pile of irredeemable despair from which our souls can never escape. Anyways, speaking about positive I hope you’ll be able to see through my feel-good stories and stories of overcoming that you are not alone in your battle and you can and will get through it. Even though I may not know you personally I want you to know I feel for you my fellow brother or sister, I hope everything will turn out well for you. I realize some people think all this motivational writing is cluttered  with cliches and I’ll admit when it comes to life lessons there is a lot of repetition, but something you must keep in mind is that sometimes people keep saying the same thing over and over again because there might be some profound truth in what is being said. Also keep in mind that the experiences I  had were far from typical and therefore the advice I share is definitely something you’ve never heard before. I also believe my words can inspire you because I’m sure that a lot of the struggles I went through are relatable, even if the details of how we suffered may be different between you and me I hope I can inspire you by my determination to keep learning life lessons even when I didn’t want to. 

   I’m already imagining this now, how in the world am I going to be an author (my dream by the way) when I struggle with vulnerability? In a world where we are programmed to put on our fake faces and shun away the most real parts of ourselves I feel scared to open up about my life. But I want to make clear that I don’t write this because it’s comfortable or because I think that it will instantly fix my life, although writing for me really is therapeutic. I write this because I hope it will be therapeutic for you, I hope when you lie down and read this you’ll be like “Finally someone that feels just like me, someone that wants to smash a chainsaw through a wall because he or she is on the verge of mental insanity!!” Well, maybe not literally about that whole chainsaw thing, but you get what I’m saying. Life can be a challenge and sometimes we feel we want to scream at the whole concept just because it isn’t convenient to us. But it’s ok because I want to scream AHHHHHH in my pillow all day sometimes too, but the solution we’re going to come up with together, and one that will get us through life is to pay attention to how life teaches us how to live,  a path of self-discovery that will open up so many doors to healing. In this blog, I will teach you how to discover a path where you can be more at peace with your life exactly as it is now, not waiting on some person or lottery ticket to redeem you from the unhappiness you have now. I encourage you to come as you are, whether you’re extremely satisfied with your life or wishing your life was totally different you will find valuable life lessons through reading my blog. I will try to be consistent as I can in updating this while this is a blog, as a college student who also works, has family obligations, and has a million hobbies to the point where I go to bed every night feeling regret that I left something undone I understand that it’s hard to find time, even to do something like writing this blog. But I write anyway because again my interest is in helping you, even if it means another time commitment. Individual topics will be addressed as we progress in this journey, but for the most part, I will be sharing life advice from my experiences, not just cliche advice you can find online.

   Now hold on a minute you may be thinking why do I care about this bum’s thoughts, who does he think he is? I’m gonna tell you straight forward I’m no one special, I’m far from perfect, I have insecurities and worries that I face every day, I’m far from rich, and a lot of days I make stupid mistakes that make me question if I have really learned anything. But you know what, that’s exactly why I encourage you to read this blog, for I promise you that although you can accuse me of being a lot of things one thing you’ll never see me be is a an inauthentic writer. I promise you every word I share I’ll be keeping it real 100%! So are you ready to embark on this journey and discover the most real version of you?